This morning before I started work, I did my usual round of surfing the internet. I went to all the usual sites and blogs and did a little "wake up" reading. Much to my dismay, there was a post that made minor reference to my initial opinions on Amazons Attack #6. There was really nothing to get upset about other then the fact that I knew my post was one of the ones being referred to and the fact that it wasn't very complimentary. My reaction was to get upset and feel hurt rather then shrug it off.
This makes me very ashamed. I am better than that.
BUT it also made me think.
I have spent the last week very uncharacteristically wallowing in the mud. I have been crabby, moody, and pissy in general. It isn't me. I have allowed events in my personal life and the constant lateness of our books to finally push me over the edge.
Think what you will of me, but I will not allow external events to shape me. If you don't agree with me, great. That is the first amendment right that I appreciate so much. I don't want to take away from it. Seeing someone else note my lows and use them to their advantage was a wake up call. I need to get back to basics and focus on the positive. That is who I am. I am not a person that needs to always find the negative. I appreciate quality and I like to have fun. This last week I have not been true to myself.
That doesn't mean that I will pander to others because I want everyone to like me. On the contrary, I invite differing opinions and like to discuss them here where I feel it is a safe environment. It just means I need to be true to myself.
I'm back, Baby.